Dallineation

I forgot to write a post yesterday. My first church meeting started at 9am and between all the church meetings, phone calls with family, and meals somewhere in there, I wasn't free until about 8pm. Add Daylight Saving Time starting and having to take allergy medicine that makes me sleepy on top of all of that and I was pretty wiped out at the end of the day.

But rather than feeling weighed down by it all as I have most Sundays for the past several months, I felt light. I felt at peace.

Rather than being frustrated and overwhelmed at the thought of everything I should be doing but am not doing or doing well, I felt like my best efforts, however meager, are still making a difference and are acceptable to God.

Rather than feeling ashamed and hypocritical that I still have questions and doubts, I knew that I was not the only one, that God does not love us any less.

I chatted with my bishop for a few minutes in between meetings.

“You seem different. You seem better,” he said.

“I am,” I replied. “I've had some spiritual experiences this week that have reaffirmed some things for me and helped me recalibrate my perspective. I still have questions, but I know I'm going to be ok.”

It's as if the sun is starting to rise on my spirit after a long, dark night. And while I know that there will be more dark nights in my life, I also know that I'm never alone.

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