Lent 2026 Day 12 – Tired
I didn't sleep well last night. My first church meeting was at 7am this morning and it was another busy day. I also had to take allergy medicine, which always makes me feel tired. Needless to say, I'm running on fumes a couple hours before my normal bedtime.
I have good moments on these busy Sundays, but I spend much of the day feeling overwhelmed and inadequate. I also feel hypocritical. Like I'm putting on a show when a battle is raging inside me. I'm as conflicted as ever.
I'm not sure how much longer I can keep up appearances. Should I ask to be released from my calling while I focus on figuring things out? Or should I hang on and trust that things will get better?
I'm just tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.
But I know I'm not the first to feel this way. I also know that there is One who knows exactly what I'm experiencing because He also experienced it on my behalf. Jesus Christ has been the one unfailing constant through all of this turmoil. I may feel like I'm going to sink beneath the waves any moment, but I know that as long as I do my best to keep my gaze focused on Him and follow Him, He won't let me drown.
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